I was given my two week notice on Friday. I’m being laid off at the end of the month.
It’s been a bit of a messy and unfortunate situation all around, and I’d rather not get into the specifics, save that it’s the usual scenario in the agency world. Big client goes bye-bye, new clients play hard-to-get, revenues and expenses get all out of what, and suddenly the ship is listing.
At least I faced this situation with my eyes open, and at least my soon-to-be-former employer has had the respect and decency to give me as much runway as possible.
Amazingly, this is the first time I’ve ever been laid off. I’m starting to lose count how many I’ve been through, how many friends and colleagues I’ve seen get the axe. I’ve seen it handled everywhere from awkwardly to poorly to flat-out incompetently. I guess I can count myself lucky in that regard.
But this is a modeling blog. And what I’ve found interesting about this layoff is how it’s impacting what I get done at the bench.
I always thought I’d be a mess of worry if I ever got laid off. I mean…wife who stays home…two kids…bills! I tend to get very obsessive about things I can’t control. But I’m almost preternaturally calm. Downright zen. Maybe it’s the unbelievable network of friends I’ve built up in the course of my career, friends who have been scattered across Austin by this damned recession, but who have leads or contract work they can throw my way. Maybe it’s a chance at a clean break and a fresh start. Or maybe it’s just…I don’t know. I know it’s going to be an inherently crazy period in my life, and so in that way, it is completely predictable.
But the bench is another matter entirely. I’ve been scattered. I’ve been doing a lot but doing nothing. I’m having trouble keeping the Spitfire organized. The Mustang’s wing seams have been driving me crazy. I haven’t touched the Panzer III since I got the news. Maybe it changes. Maybe I hit a stride once I get through the frustrating filling/sanding/filling/sanding routine I’m stuck in right now.
As to how the layoff will impact my production on this blog…I can’t say. Maybe a whole lot more posts, maybe fewer. But I do plan to keep up with it as I have been.
I also want to take a moment to sincerely thank those of you who take the time to read and especially to comment. I’m not making any money from this site…it’s just a place where I can geek out about a hobby that I’ve come to appreciate in ways I never did as a kid, and I’m thrilled to no end that my meandering posts might actually be of value to someone!
Also, I don’t really share site traffic all that often, but numbers have been growing more or less steadily since I started this blog last year. After leveling off a bit in June, they’ve suddenly exploded again – last Thursday was the busiest day Doogs’ Models has ever had, and so far average views per day are up a whopping 25% over June. I’m amazed and humbled by this stunning growth, and have you all to thank for it. So…thank you!